December 2008
37 posts
“The last year of my life has been like this wide-awake nightmare of conflicting...”
– Dawsons Creek (via littlemiss) (via callmecash)
This truely was the TV show dramatic version of my life at one point. Its scary to know that, years later, parts of it still ring true about me and my longest friend…
“I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting...”
– (via littlemiss
)
Personally, I think that if you are losing something you don’t have in the first place, it is called “giving up.” “Letting go” is losing something that is rightfully yours.
(via callmecash)
“I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know we’re better off letting...”
– (via littlemiss
)
I've Become
completely obsessed over an idea. something happens in my life and my imagination takes it one step farther. It’s slightly annoying how unrealistic i can be, on an emotional scale anyway. So goodnight. I’m going to let my subconscious take over and go wild with crazy new ideas, situations, and possibilities I hadn’t considered. Peace
It
hasn’t stopped snowing ALL DAY.
My English project still isn’t done (it the only thing I have left to do.)
The snow is calling me. I haven’t been outside yet. One little break wont hurt, right?
:D
Hardcore
cleaned my room today! I even DUSTED! and VACUUMED! and took down a bunch of old pics/things I dont want to look at anymore.
I also found out my car is totalled. The cost of repairing the damages is approaching the car’s total value. As much as I complained about my car, I miss it. It was my first, so it will always have a place in my heart, ya know. It will be hard to find another one to...
1:22 a.m.
Happy Birthday Jake!
Ben is back in town! I can’t wait to see him again!! It’s been WAY too long.
My coach never emailed me the workout schedule. It seems I have no reason for feeling guilty for not doing anything today. I was looking forward to working out tho : /
Wrestling practice tomorrow :D so excited. g’night
6 Hours at Basketball Games
for my first day of Christmas Break. I hate basketball, but we needed people to work concessions.
Now I’m putting all my music back on itunes cuz my computer’s hard drive was wiped clean when it got debugged. Yay me. What an exciting life i live : /
Waste
I think I’ve lost priority in my life, or I’m searching for meaning in all the wrong places. I’ve lost almost all contact with my friends, focusing on school, sports med, and soccer. I’ve become best friends with the other third years, which is only a problem because we never hang out outside of school. idk I think I’m just being really girly and emotional right now....
stutzman:
ssejica:
the hand song
Violin and...
callmecash:
Landon Pigg - Falling In Love At A...
Good News!
I GOT THE KATHERIN ALBERSTON SCHOLARSHIP THAT I TRIED OUT FOR!!!! That also means I was accepted to my #1 school! The frist and ONLY school I actually applied to. what a relief. I literally screamed when my admissions councilor called me! I’ve been wating for so long… everybody else had been accepted already. BUT NOW SO HAVE I!! YESYESYESYESYESYES!!!!
I'm Never Driving Again
EVER. Not until the snow is gone
What Happened To My Life?...
Reaccurance
I dreamt I was rejected last night. There was something about a haunted house that we were a part of, then we went back to someone’s house. I wasn’t invited, but went along with the group. When it was time for bed (in my dream, go figure) I asked someone a question like, “do you want to share the bed with me?” and it was a downright “NO”. I’m starting to...
Oh! And...
I had a dream about orchestra after my previous one. I think we went to festival/HOSA (I think there were sports med people there too) and we just hung out in the hotel for a while. Each person in the honor orchestra had a flag. The first chairs from each section were displayed across the front of the stage- mine being one of them. I think Nick goes to cut his down, and I decide I want mine too. I...
Comfort
I fell asleep on the couch today after school in my sweatpants watching tv. I had a few interruptions but it was a nice three hours before dinner. It took me until after dinner to realize why I felt I had slept so soundly.
Before drifting off, my mind wandered to Hunter and how weirdly our relationship started. I see him everywhere now and love his hugs. He can serioiusly make me smile when I...
Codon Looks Inappropriate When I'm Exhausted
Trying to read for Bio is nearly impossible. I have WAY too much on my mind right now. Not only am I physically, mentally, and spiritually exhuasted past my limit, I’m so concerned about a lot of people. Mostly sports med… and not going to the tourniment tomorrow… because I have to study for the ACT. I’m thinking about asking the 3rd years about a possible party/hangout...
Dependant
I just got home from sports med-ing wrestling. Its 10:14pm and I haven’t even looked at my homework and I’m completely exhausted. So instead of doing it, I’m writing this blog…. yeah. Wrestling is my new football-like obsession. It was the first meet today and I feel that I can already call some of them My Guys. A lot of them I know already; they are so polite and genuinely...
Thanks Jak!
It’s working! :D
I'm Writing a Worship Song
Today at small group we prayed for close to an hour and a half nonstop. It was really cleansing, refreshing, and inspiring. There were only a few people (less than 10, including leaders) but I think it was better that way. Towards the end I really concentrated on what Daro was singing and playing. Sometimes I think music speaks louder than words can. Daro and Donna played and sang the worship song...
Christmas Gifts
one down, a million more to go.
I just spent the last 3 hours or so making a gift for someone. I have NO clue if he’ll like it or not, but it was just something i thought of kinda randomly. I wasn’t planning on making it for him, but it was just too perfect.
Its something pretty artistic and I’m not sure how to finish it. I think I just need to go shopping for the finishing...
Football Banquet
A part of me died the day football season ended.
Knowing I’ll never go back to those bleachers again, to watch my team play under the lights is hard to think about. Those friends I made, the experiences we had, will never be forgotten… and will never be replaced. Now that its over and I dont get to see them, I realize how close we really were and how things are never going to be the...
“The only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because they are the only...”
– Unknown (via callmecash)
Hypocrit
I’m bipolar. I can go from extremely happy to melancholy and depressed in a matter of days. Idk how it happened. My joy is gone. I try to set a good example and be an encouragement to others. I know some of my friends are going through a hard time and I want to be there for them. When there is nothing I can do for them, I feel like a failure. I want to be a hero, but I need rescuing right...
stutzman:
i really have no reason to feel this way
so many good songs
and STILL no sound on my computer :(
Jak. I’ll let you take it my laptop home on sunday after church.
things koala bears would say - timothy weinmann
unicornology:
scout:
beccaginns:
from mountain man dance moves: the mcsweeney’s book of lists:
yay!
love me!
climbing trees is fun!
let’s volunteer at a soup kitchen this christmas.
my tongue is funny!
eating leaves is fun!
will you help me think of something nice we can do for grandma?
look, a pouch!
let’s prevent a forest fire!
no, you’re the cutest!
camus is boring. i find karl...
Music
Wow. Has there ever been anything more perfect?! Just the way the sound penetrates down to my deepest soul is truly amazing me tonight. Just recently I decided that I can never have enough- never be complacent with what I have already. I want to know more, hear more, enjoy more. There are a few bands I told myself that I would never like… and here I am now finding them catchy and genius. Oh...
breefield:
Who is this? I really like it :D
...
(via stutzman)
Who is this? I really like it :D
Here Ends My Night of A.D.D.
I got most of my homework done, but just discovered that my desktop computer has sound! (IDK why it wouldn’t, its working perfectly fine.) I listened to all of the posted songs and fell in love with music all over again. I’ve really missed it… A bunch of new bands to look up and stuff to do :D G’night
Between Commercials
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate...
“I don’t own a poncho. If someone asks me, ‘Do you own a poncho?’ I don’t say no....”
– Demetri Martin (via callmecash)
OMG this made me laugh so much harder than I expected to. I haven’t had a laugh like that in a while. I tried reading it to my family, but they didn’t care to hear it. Their loss I guess
Love; or lack-there-of
hollywoodhills:
I believe in free love, but it means absolutely nothing if there is no one to love you in the first place. I’m lonely, and all I can do is tell people that I am fine. I don’t need a one person to love or to love me, obviously it would be nice to have physical and emotional romantic interest, but all i want is the kind of love that comes with friendship. I just need people in my...